Saturday, August 3, 2013

At a loss for words...

I keep trying to find the words to write, but I'm finding myself at a loss for words. The lyrics from
"Word Of God Speak" keep coming to mind.

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay

Two months after Kelsey died, I was at the Gala in DC where Karly's art work was being auctioned for proceeds to fund the Inn. I met a lady named Donna. We were instantly bonded by our stories. During the Gala, I found the inspiration to start the DOCK8 Connection. It has been slow, but I vowed it would honor God, Kelsey, and totally be in His timing. So waiting....patiently. One thing Donna shared was how grieved she was. I asked, "Why?" She replied, "Because I keep seeing people with my daughter's disease die" It is not easy connecting people and growing to meet and love them, then learning of their death. Such it is that I am also learning. Being connected to people is what God adores. To be in relationship with others is how we grow and learn and love. I am still grieving, not only for Kelsey, but for the others that have touched our lives....Bubba, Troy, Cameron, and Kara. I don't understand why the children must suffer and die, but I still TRUST God's plan. I recently spoke at a MOPS(mothers of preschoolers) meeting. One question I posed to them was, "If Jesus was sitting next to you on a bus, what would you ask Him?" As I was listening to their answers, they asked me. I was not expecting to answer this myself, but I did. I would ask, "Why the children?" I'm can speculate many answers He may give. But in the end, I would still respond the same. I trust you. I trust Him with all my children. We have them for only a short span. I pray and hope that they have this same response when live issues hit them...I trust you, Jesus. Do you trust Him at all times with all things?